No Matter What.

I will trust Him IF this turns out the way I want...

I will follow Him IF He makes my life easier...

I will be bold in my faith IF other people don't laugh at me...

This song, "No Matter What" by Kerrie Roberts, exemplifies our complete NEED for God. Dependence. When I started my second year at Teen Mania, the Lord really set this idea of "dependence" on my heart. I felt like most everything I was learning was about this, and the rest of that year was just one moment of surrender after another. I was so full of pride thinking, "I have to figure out a way to do this on my own." I kept trying to FIX myself, which obviously got me nowhere. That year was a process of asking the Lord to renew my mind and bring me to a place of REST, knowing that I can not do this life on my own... He doesn't ask that of me anyways.

NO MATTER WHAT.

It's easy to depend on God when our finances are in order, school is going well, we know what our future looks like, etc, etc. But what about when life is hard? What about when we have no idea what tomorrow looks like, nevermind the next 5 years? (because really, none of us do) What about those days where life hits you hard and you feel out of control? When there is more chaos than peace? Do we trust on those days? Do we depend on the Lord NO MATTER what, or do we try to take back what we've already surrendered? "Okay, God, I know that I said I gave you my WHOLE life, but that was before I knew ___ was going to happen. Now I want to take things into my own hands again." That may SOUND ridiculous, but I know I've done it way more times than I 'd like to admit. My pride rises up and I get nervous that God just isn't going to come through, and I freak out. (a.k.a - I take back what I've already claimed to have surrendered.)

I want to live my life like this song. What freedom! I don't have to make the choice every morning if I'm going to live for myself or for the Lord, I just KNOW that my life is in God's hands and HE is in control. I don't need to worry! I'm surprised everyday by the tragedies around the world, the aches in my heart, the circumstances around me... but NOTHING surprises Him. He is my HOPE + my STRENGTH. I will trust in Him - no matter what.

No Matter What - Kerrie Roberts

I'm running back to your promises one more time
Lord that's all I can hold on to
I gotta say this has taken my by surprise
But nothing surprises You

Before a heartache can ever touch my life
It has to go through your hands
And even though I, keep asking why, I keep asking why

No matter what I'm gonna love you
No matter what I'm gonna need you
I know that you can find a way to keep me from the pain, but if not, if not, I'll trust in You
No matter what

When I'm stuck in this nothing-ness by myself
I'm just sitting in silence
There's no way I can make it without your help
I won't even try it

I know you have your reasons for everything
So I will keep believing, whatever I might be feeling
God You are my hope and You'll be my strength

Anything I don't have you can give to me
But it's okay if you don't - I'm not here for those things
The touch of your love is enough on it's own
No matter what I still love you, and I'm gonna need you

Check out the song on youtube here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n4DzjiU3pTA&feature=related