It's About Time.

It has been FAR too long. Remind me not to stay away [from writing] so long ever again. I enjoy writing tremendously and foregoing blogging AND journaling for almost three weeks just makes my heart sink. I thought it was because I didn't know WHAT to say or HOW to say what I wanted to say... but I need to be disciplined to push through those times because it is probably in those moments of life that God really wants to work in me and shape me. Instead, I was stubborn. Typical. ;-)

School started last week and I'm still in the funk of figuring out my drastically different schedule, getting used to new classes and professors, and settling into a nice groove for the next 4 months. I really enjoy being a student and I think my classes will be interesting. I'm super excited about my Personal Evangelism class at the Biblical Studies Center!

I'm in one of those times of life where... I feel a little crazy. :)
I'm excited about what God is doing in my life, but scared at the same time.
I understand some of the things I'm learning in Him, but there is so much more that I just don't understand at all.
I know that I'm surrounded by such a wonderful, godly community, but at the same time feel independent and aloof.
I can think of about 100 things that I need to become more disciplined in and learn about, but can't seem to make headway on a single one.

Here are the lyrics to a song that we've been singing a lot at church by Matt Redman, "Never Once"

Standing on this mountaintop
Looking just how far we've come
Knowing that for every step
You were with us


Kneeling on this battle ground
Seeing just how much You've done
Knowing every victory
Is Your power in us


Scars and struggles on the way
But with joy our hearts can say
Yes, our hearts can say
Never once did we ever walk alone
Never once did You leave us on our own
You are faithful, God, You are faithful

Never once did we ever walk alone
Never once did You leave us on our own
You are faithful, God, You are faithful
You are faithful, God, You are faithful


Scars and struggles on the way
But with joy our hearts can say
Never once did we ever walk alone
Carried by Your constant grace
Held within Your perfect peace
Never once, no, we never walk alone


Never once did we ever walk alone
Never once did You leave us on our own
You are faithful, God, You are faithful


Every step we are breathing in Your grace
Evermore we'll be breathing out Your praise
You are faithful, God, You are faithful
You are faithful, God, You are faithful
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Even in the confusion and "figuring out" of life, He IS with us. He is forever faithful. He quiets my heart and rejoices over me with singing. His love endures ALL things and will never, ever fail.

Today, I am thankful for His grace. He is so worthy of my trust, and yet I still doubt. Give me faith, Lord, and help me in my unbelief!